renewal

I no longer weep
at the memories.
Comfort comes,
deep from within.
Strenght is now,
my companion.
I am renewed.

really?
no way!
omg you have to be kidding me!

Time

There is never enough
time in a day
to do all i need,
and let me play

With being a mother,
a lover, a friend
I am the one
left alone in the end.

what was supposed to be easy
is hard
what I once knew has been left
behind

I feel helpless and lost
it is hard
I am sinking and being left
behind

dragged from the darkness

I have been dragged from the darkness
forced to see the light of day
tortured into feeling the sun on my skin,
the wind in my hair.
I struggle as I am made to walk in the green grass.
I look for comfort in the shade of the trees
and find solice in the clouds.
oh why can there not be more clouds?
If only the dark clouds would roll in
blot the sun from sky.
cast there shadows for all to see
why have I been dragged from the darkness.
No I can not see

Lost and Found

I am under the sounds of normal
The laughter,
the contentment,
the peace.
I am lost under it all.
Drowning
Buried
Lost

Above me I hear it.
Happy sounds
Serene talking
Normal People
I can not break through,
Strangled
Empty
Lost

He is calling
soothing words
Calming sounds
gentle hands
I am brought into the light
Gently
Calmly
Found

Where????

Where is it?
I know it is my fault,
I search, franticaly trying to find it
Where?
Panic sets in, as I hear the roar above.
Where is it?
How could I do this again
I brought this pain upon my self
WHERE IS IT?????
It is gone,
It can not be found.
I am lost
WHERE!!!!!