The Darker Side of Me

I truly do wonder some times, if I will ever be able separate the masks that I wear. I feel that I have to put on a different face for every aspect of my life, and I honestly do not know which one is my true self. I feel like an actress playing a role.

Every aspect of the day requires a different role, a different costume, a different self. Work, Home, Play. All different. I am never the same person for long. I feel that every one is expecting me to be something else for them. I can feel the drain of there needs taking my strength almost. It can be very tiring.

I try to start each day saying, today, I will be me! I will be who I am , and be true to my self. Some days this can last most of the day. But then there will be a catalyst that will require me to be someone else. Someone stronger then I want to be. Why do I have to be strong all the time? Why can't I be the one to hide under the blankets till the monsters are gone?